It’s a challenge because I (might) have too many things in there.
I’m not a hoarder but I’m a keeper. (positive self-talk)
I have lots of jewelry from when I was little, and a teenager… as well as some special pieces, passed down from my mother and grandmothers.
As I began examining the rings in one box… some observances came to mind about promises and commitments in general.
When I looked at the rings I had collected… some from past relationships, both of my grandmother’s wedding rings… I thought about the sizes of the diamonds, and how – it didn’t seem to matter how big that center diamond was back then, in fact – they were actually…. SMALL.
Both of my grandmother’s wedding rings were smaller than the promise rings I had received when I was a teenager…
And YET, that didn’t seem to make a lick of difference in the promises and commitments they made to their husbands. Both of my grandmothers were devoted, and committed to their husbands – until death did they part, and their husbands were faithful and committed to them as well.
You see, it was that commitment to each other, and God – that mattered most.
Not the size of the diamond, or what the ring looked like at all.
Hard to imagine in today’s world. For me, anyway.
Looking through those rings also made me think about God’s promises to us, and His plans in adverse circumstances we encounter.
You see, I had a pretty rough week last week. While my mercury is now all out of my mouth (praise God!), and my smile is looking great, I’ve been dealing with the consequences of those brownies with raw cacao, and my immune system is in the dump.
I ended up getting a cold, and losing my voice for almost a week. My ear pain and headaches were exhausting and my energy has been almost nonexistent.
Then I tasted a bite of an auto immune “safe” pretzel that I made Saturday night, and my eye is now all red and has been swelling as well.
Sometimes I’m just tired – as I know you are too, just from the day-to-day struggles I have in life.
I’m tired of having to take so much time to buy, and prepare everyone’s food, and planning everything “just so” when I can’t even eat 95% of what I make… and never being able to eat out for a night off.
I get tired of having to justify why I’m sick or explain why me “having celiac” isn’t as easy as “just eating gluten-free” and being well.
Sometimes I’m tired of explaining why I don’t want to go through the western medicine process of getting a diagnosis for other auto immune diseases… as if knowing how many spots I have on my brain will help me be well?
But then I stop. I stop my pity party, and my frustration within the circumstances God has placed me in… and I thank Him.
I know I would have never had the opportunity to share His love, grace, and mercy in such a way… had I not been blessed with this struggle. I know I wouldn’t have the opportunity to be forced to SLOW DOWN and say NO… to so many things – so that I could say YES, to the Lord and His plan for our family. I know in my heart no one can or needs to understand what I’m dealing with – except God.
I think of God’s promises in this battle for my health, and I rest in His peace. I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. Doing exactly what He wants me to do. I’m not missing anything He doesn’t want me to do – nor experiencing anything outside of His desires for me. It really doesn’t matter what it “looks like” to anyone else.
THAT is an awesome promise, from an awesome God.
Here’s to keeping up the fight, for being healthy for Him! Whatever that fight looks like for you. He never promised easy, He just promised He would be with us each step of the way!
“Blessed be God, who has given peace to His people Israel just as He said He’d do. Not one of all those good and wonderful words that He spoke through Moses has misfired. May God, our very own God, continue to be with us just as He was with our ancestors—may He never give up and walk out on us. May He keep us centered and devoted to Him, following the life path He has cleared, watching the signposts, walking at the pace and rhythms He laid down for our ancestors.
“And let these words that I’ve prayed in the presence of God be always right there before Him, day and night, so that He’ll do what is right for me, to guarantee justice for His people Israel day after day after day. Then all the people on earth will know God is the true God; there is no other God. And you, your lives must be totally obedient to God, our personal God, following the life path He has cleared, alert and attentive to everything He has made plain this day.”