Do You Wanna …

Smoothies.  I make 8 of these a day with various ingredients inside.... to nourish and support our children's gut health.  Time consuming?  Yes.  But...  Believe me, it's been worth it.

Smoothies. I make 8 of these a day with various ingredients inside…. to nourish and support our children’s gut health. Time consuming? Yes. But… Believe me, it’s been worth it.

If you’ve got a female child in the house, then chances are – you know what the next words are going to be…

build a SNOWWWWWWMAN?

Of course, I’m talking about a line from one of the hit songs in the Disney animated “FROZEN”.  After the live version of the song went viral today on Facebook, and I cried… yet again at the words and the emotion.  Especially as the girl turns into an adult, and begs of her sister to “let her in….”

I started of considering WHY. ( I mean other than God created me highly in tune with my emotions – for which I do not consider a weakness, and am thankful for) 🙂

Why does that song and the words and the feeling just really break me down?

Chances are most of us have felt like Anna…. or like Elza at some point in our lives.  Either “shut out” or the one shutting others out because of unexplainable hurt.

I know I have.

More than once, I’m positive.

And it hurts.

I watched an episode of “What Not to Wear” while walking on the treadmill this week, and the person they were transforming reminded me of my daughter.  Words were being thrown around about how the person had “no feeling” or “held no emotional connection to her clothing” …  she just was unable to show her emotions, so they gave her a scale to use to share how she was feeling from 0 to 10.

Now clearly the person HAD emotions, and she had opinions… but according to what the world considers “normal” (and I’d include myself in the category with the world), this girl clearly had a social disorder or perhaps even autism spectrum disorder.  It was pretty obvious.

Honestly, it was painful to watch as a viewer, and I’m guessing it was a pretty awkward situation for the hosts of the show.  I think it took them a bit to pick up that she was actually “like that” – it was part of who she was.

My relationship with my daughter has always boggled my mind.  As most children naturally repeat “I love you” when prompted at a young age, she was 5 before she said it…. and even then I didn’t feel like she really knew what that meant.  She struggles with empathy, emotion and proper social cues.

But sometimes?

I’m jealous that she doesn’t really get emotionally tied in to things (clothing especially, or food for that matter, or situations that shouldn’t require as much thought as I have given it) or that she doesn’t blame herself when someone blows her off…  (because chances are, she doesn’t notice it!)

So part of my tears this week were empathy.

Part of them were JOY.

My daughter is making progress… I feel this recovery process IS working, especially on her brain and in her heart.  I wish I could share with you what a gift it is to have her say, “Hey mom….” and actually have something she wants to share with me, vs blank looks, and no interaction.  She even started writing a “back and forth” journal with me.  This clearly isn’t the same girl in so many aspects.  HUGE hope.  HUGE.

For those of you working on recovering your children with autism – just know, it’s worth it.  I’m seeing leaps and bounds with this one.  I couldn’t be happier.

God doesn’t change who HE is, but aren’t you thankful He can change us?  Boy, am I ever! Healthy for Him

“I the Lord do not change.”
Malachi 3:6a

 

Posted on April 5, 2014, in Our Struggles, Truth and tagged , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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