I Will Not Be Ashamed

In less than 72 hours I’m going to my 20th class reunion.

A mixture of feelings comes over me… 

Excitement.  I’m going with my husband, and for the first time in our 15 years of marriage with 8 children we will be “alone” without kids.

Anticipation.  We’re running a 5K together, and my last one of those was pretty painful, so I have some mixed feelings… but overall, positive.

Concern.  For a weekend of events centered around food and drinks… I know it’s going to come up.

“Why aren’t you eating? How about a drink?  What is wrong with you?”

A shot a of wheatgrass.  The only type of shots I will have.  Something that builds up my health, and my immune system.

A shot a of wheatgrass. The only type of shots I will have. Something that builds up my health, and my immune system.

It’s really not that complicated.

It’s not that big of a deal either… It’s not like I’ve been a drinker for years.  I’m not sure why it bothers me to just say what is “wrong”… or what is going on…

But socially, it’s just one of things sometimes you’d like to pretend doesn’t exist…

There’s a part of me that wants to just speak up and get it over with so we can get it off the table, and move on… but I know there will be more questions... and the selfish side of me wants to talk about other things… anything but looking in the rear view mirror.  Just for the weekend.

Now don’t get me wrong… I enjoy talking, sharing, and helping others…  I do – I love it.  I thank God every day that I have the opportunity through my struggle to help others similar to myself.

But … (and you know what I mean), sometimes you don’t want to talk about it with people who don’t understand.  There are parts of me that are frustrated even looking back to high school, and realizing I was sick then – and didn’t know.

I’ve realized it’s a bad heart attitude.   It’s kind of like saying, “I don’t want to share the gospel with unbelievers… they don’t understand.”

Sometimes, the very people who don’t think they need information, are the ones who do… and how do we learn if we don’t hear?

So, if you could say a pray for me – that if there is anyone there who needs to learn about natural healing – or disease and the gut connection – that I might be able to serve them in some way (?)  I’d appreciate it!

(I promise to keep my health preaching to a minimum.)  Who am I kidding?  Hide this gift?  No way.

Here’s to reminiscing about positive memories in the past.  Enjoy your weekend!

“How then will they call on him in whom they have not believed?

And how are they to believe in him of whom they have never heard?  

And how are they to hear without someone preaching?”

 Romans 10:14

Posted on August 22, 2013, in Auto Immune Disease, Celiac/Gluten Sensitivity, Our Struggles and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.

  1. Love you, Sara! Sending prayers for a great weekend, for God to use you as He always does, and for safety and peace for the kiddos. Enjoy your time with your hubby and ALL the hugs and kisses you receive on your return home!

  2. Thanks for the encouragement Mandy! Much appreciated!!! 🙂 (hugs)

  3. GO & HAVE A GOOD TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!! Share with us when ya get home— & ya might want to take some calling cards with ya–on how to contact you later– I find I hear from most people LATER— when I get back home–who I have given my calling cards!!! 🙂 If you don’t have calling cards with your address– phone– & e-mail & blog address— take some address labels with ya!!! 🙂 You WILL hear from some of the people you meet– LATER!!!!

    • Thanks Sonda, we had a great time. My friends were really good about everything – and I only had a couple of strange comments. I felt badly for the person who hosted the meal (a classmate), but other than that – all was well, and I stay HEALTHY! I even won a medal in the 5K I ran (not because I’m so great, but because I was the second fastest in our age category in a small race). So that was a lot of fun, and brought smiles. I had a great time with my husband, and it was great to see some old friends!

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