Monthly Archives: June 2013
It’s a challenge because I (might) have too many things in there.
I’m not a hoarder but I’m a keeper. (positive self-talk)
I have lots of jewelry from when I was little, and a teenager… as well as some special pieces, passed down from my mother and grandmothers.
As I began examining the rings in one box… some observances came to mind about promises and commitments in general.
When I looked at the rings I had collected… some from past relationships, both of my grandmother’s wedding rings… I thought about the sizes of the diamonds, and how – it didn’t seem to matter how big that center diamond was back then, in fact – they were actually…. SMALL.
Both of my grandmother’s wedding rings were smaller than the promise rings I had received when I was a teenager…
And YET, that didn’t seem to make a lick of difference in the promises and commitments they made to their husbands. Both of my grandmothers were devoted, and committed to their husbands – until death did they part, and their husbands were faithful and committed to them as well.
You see, it was that commitment to each other, and God – that mattered most.
Not the size of the diamond, or what the ring looked like at all.
Hard to imagine in today’s world. For me, anyway.
Looking through those rings also made me think about God’s promises to us, and His plans in adverse circumstances we encounter.
You see, I had a pretty rough week last week. While my mercury is now all out of my mouth (praise God!), and my smile is looking great, I’ve been dealing with the consequences of those brownies with raw cacao, and my immune system is in the dump.
I ended up getting a cold, and losing my voice for almost a week. My ear pain and headaches were exhausting and my energy has been almost nonexistent.
Then I tasted a bite of an auto immune “safe” pretzel that I made Saturday night, and my eye is now all red and has been swelling as well.
Sometimes I’m just tired – as I know you are too, just from the day-to-day struggles I have in life.
I’m tired of having to take so much time to buy, and prepare everyone’s food, and planning everything “just so” when I can’t even eat 95% of what I make… and never being able to eat out for a night off.
I get tired of having to justify why I’m sick or explain why me “having celiac” isn’t as easy as “just eating gluten-free” and being well.
Sometimes I’m tired of explaining why I don’t want to go through the western medicine process of getting a diagnosis for other auto immune diseases… as if knowing how many spots I have on my brain will help me be well?
But then I stop. I stop my pity party, and my frustration within the circumstances God has placed me in… and I thank Him.
I know I would have never had the opportunity to share His love, grace, and mercy in such a way… had I not been blessed with this struggle. I know I wouldn’t have the opportunity to be forced to SLOW DOWN and say NO… to so many things – so that I could say YES, to the Lord and His plan for our family. I know in my heart no one can or needs to understand what I’m dealing with – except God.
I think of God’s promises in this battle for my health, and I rest in His peace. I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. Doing exactly what He wants me to do. I’m not missing anything He doesn’t want me to do – nor experiencing anything outside of His desires for me. It really doesn’t matter what it “looks like” to anyone else.
THAT is an awesome promise, from an awesome God.
Here’s to keeping up the fight, for being healthy for Him! Whatever that fight looks like for you. He never promised easy, He just promised He would be with us each step of the way!
“Blessed be God, who has given peace to His people Israel just as He said He’d do. Not one of all those good and wonderful words that He spoke through Moses has misfired. May God, our very own God, continue to be with us just as He was with our ancestors—may He never give up and walk out on us. May He keep us centered and devoted to Him, following the life path He has cleared, watching the signposts, walking at the pace and rhythms He laid down for our ancestors.
“And let these words that I’ve prayed in the presence of God be always right there before Him, day and night, so that He’ll do what is right for me, to guarantee justice for His people Israel day after day after day. Then all the people on earth will know God is the true God; there is no other God. And you, your lives must be totally obedient to God, our personal God, following the life path He has cleared, alert and attentive to everything He has made plain this day.”
This new cookbook I got from Paleo OMG (which I choose to say Oh, My Goodness… but do not love either), is the bomb-diggity. It’s turned Paleo on its head and really come up with some different things for me to make for my family. I love her recipes.
The good news is, she also has a lot of great ones online… so if you can’t buy the cookbook now – then definitely check out her website.
I’ve really enjoyed some of her different muffin ideas, and her meal ideas are also fabulous. (not for me, BUT definitely for my family!)
I thought I’d share a few of the muffins I’ve made recently (with a few adjustments, because … well… I’m just like that). 🙂 But the credit and ideas are hers… I just make it work for our family of 10.
Maple Pecan Crunch Banana Muffins (the topping makes these delightful, and they were a HUGE hit with my family!) ** I did add a cup of coconut flakes, and a cup of almond flour. I didn’t put the dates in the food processor, I just cut them up small instead.
Another favorite was a banana, chocolate chip, STRAWBERRY muffin. I think I quadrupled this recipe and made 2 dozen. The only changes I did was no flaxseed and I just chopped up the dates. again, vs. putting them in the food processor. (Although I might start doing that because I have ONE child who swears she doesn’t like dates. WHAT? How can you NOT like God’s caramel???)
WARNING: One major thing I don’t like, and other have complained about, is her crass language through her blog and cookbook. She’s young, immature, and I wouldn’t leave her cookbook out for your kids to read. Personally I just skip her little blurbs and look at the pictures and recipes.
Happy Saturday! We are entertaining a family of 7 tomorrow – so we’ll have 17 people here!! I can’t wait! First on my list – make fruit kabobs!
whatever is true,
whatever is honorable,
whatever is just, whatever is pure,
whatever is lovely,
whatever is commendable,
if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise,
think about these things.”
Philippians 4:8 ESV
Ever heard the saying, “I can’t trust that person as far as I can throw them?”
Pleasant thought, isn’t it?
I suppose you could say that same thing about me, when it comes to learning old lessons the hard way.
I just don’t learn lessons about food very well.
Call me optimistic, or just plain … not very smart when it comes to wanting chocolate.
But it was my birthday. I wanted a treat.
I made those brownies…
I even put them in a larger pan to make more of them – so they would be smaller. (I game I often played with myself to justify larger pieces, that weren’t as thick.)
You’re all fooled right?
So what did I do the night I made my brownies?
I was just going to have a little taste…
(That would be like an alcoholic saying they would have just “one sip”…)
Three brownies later… I was SO pleased with myself.
No bloat, no head shaking… (like I said, I knew they wouldn’t be like some of my other offenders, so the affects weren’t immediate)… and Mmmmmm…. so tasty. I missed brownies so much.
Then the next day came… and I had this pain – all day, in my side.
I went running with my husband and it worsened. Similar to a round ligament pain, or a runners cramp – but it was there before I started running and never went away.
In celebration of my birthday at lunch… I treated myself with 2 more brownies. (Hey, they were small… right?)
While I was running, I totally regretted that – as I thought I might throw those bad-boys up. (Nothing like a run to remind you to NOT over eat!)
But again, I justified it… I REALLY missed brownies… and treats… and it WAS my birthday.
Dumb. Dumb. Dumb.
I was so worn out last night I could barely hold my head up. Yes, I’ve had a long week – but it was more than that, and I knew it.
I woke up today, and it was even worse and I felt like almost flu-ish… just like I did last fall, almost everyday. Right before my husband came home from lunch – I was passed out on the couch. JUST LIKE last fall. My eyes have been swelling, my head and throat hurt… and my head… is just pounding. I liken it to be run through two metal rollers and spit out. Everything hurt.
And I’m REALLY mad at myself.
It was NOT worth it. I really knew I shouldn’t have done that… I can’t be trusted with just a bite. I love those tastes too much – and I knew that too. Shame on me.
Ok, moving on now…
A good friend, actually a extra-special “sister” of mine sent me a birthday card and gift certificate to a place that serves all raw foods and juices. It was such a blessing and encouragement to me today. JUST what I needed.
#1. that she got me enough to know that “feeling normal” by being able to get a “treat” out is pretty special, and #2, that she wants to encourage me to be well, which was needed today when I just felt SO poorly.
Feeling majorly blessed, which is much better than beating myself up for something I can’t change now. Off to drink some juice and keep flushing this out of my system. The scripture is fitting. I feel like a FOOL.
“As a dog returns to its vomit, so fools repeat their folly.”
“Why do you ask honey?” I questioned back as I was busy tending to dinner preparations and had my mind on other things.
“Because it’s your BIRTHDAY!” he exclaimed.
“Oh. That.” I said, as I continued cooking dinner.
“She’s NOT excited for her birthday, because she can’t even have cake!” reminded my 2nd son.
I couldn’t help but giggle at the perspective of my children…
Maybe they were right… maybe the idea of no cake made it seem less like my birthday. Maybe I could avoid turning a year older altogether?
At least they remembered…
I just explained that with it being father’s day, and our busy week – it wasn’t going to really be MY day, and that was ok too. (Enter in the wah-wahs) Honestly, I’m just thankful to be alive and on the path to keeping me healthy .
THAT is what I’m celebrating this day. Thanks be to God!!
Since we still have left over ice-cream cake from my 3rd daughter’s birthday this week, I didn’t feel the need to make them more cake for my birthday…
But I did feel motivated to whip up something that would be the least of all evils for me – in case I wanted to splurge and have a BITE of it. We’ll see how I feel about that tomorrow.
Yes, that means they’re chocolate.
I’m not supposed to have chocolate, but since getting some of my fillings out – I haven’t tried it, Errr… tested it to see if anything has changed. (I know I really shouldn’t ever have it – but again, I’m pondering a bite. Maybe I will just smell them… but if I change my mind – they will be ready?)
Listen to me justify.
I would say nuts, nightshades, grains, and soy bother me most… so after much searching, I came up with this from beyondthepeel.net and I renamed them birthday brownies for my selfish:
- 1/2 cup coconut oil or coconut butter
- 1/2 cup raw cacao
- 6 eggs
- 1 tsp vanilla
- 1/3 honey (or omit)
- 3/4 cup coconut palm sugar
1/2 cup coconut flour
- 1 cup shredded coconut
** I added enjoy life chocolate chips – just because I’m naughty like that – always.
8×8 pan or 7×9, 325 degrees, for 35 minutes.
They smell good anyway… Mmmmmmmm. Warm brownies.
Enjoy my “birth verse” today… as we must put on our armor of God everyday!!
“…take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.”
Well, with my mercury removal that is!
A lot has happened with my mercury and metals levels in the past 2 months. I wrote awhile back about chelating with a natural brand called Pectaclear.
I believe it was very effective – but I did have some rough days early on, where I know it was eliminating the metals from my body and I was feeling pretty awful, to put it mildly.
One day, I was pretty certain I was dying. I went from feeling well in the morning, to having several bowel movements and then feeling feverish, and almost passing out. While some people might conclude it was from the chelator itself – I have now been taking it 2 months and have had no adverse reactions other than what I felt that first week.
Another BIG step I’ve taken is getting my amalgam fillings removed, and redone in porcelain (another name for partial crowns). While composite is an option (and much less expensive), I knew I needed to remove as many toxins as possible – and if we could afford it, we would go with porcelain.
Porcelain is also more durable for the long-term. I had 7 fillings to redo – and one was a tiny one in one of my front top teeth, (that one was done in composite because there wasn’t a large enough area to do it in porcelain). The other 6 done in porcelain. I got 3 fillings done at the first appointment, and will have the other 4 on the other side of my mouth completed next week.
The process wasn’t scary for me, but just making sure my body was prepared was my biggest concern. I had heard of others, similar to me, being knocked out for days following the procedure. I was planning a trip the next day and was really hoping I wasn’t feeling sick. My naturopath recommended taking 500 mg of vitamin C an hour for the day before, and the day of. It’s called “Vitamin C loading”. Apparently the daily recommended dose of Vitamin C is incredibly low… so a way to figure out how much your body needs/ can tolerate – you begin loading at 500 mg an hour until your body “responds” by having adverse reactions (which are really just stomach/bowel related), and then you know to back it off. So the recommended daily need of Vitamin C, according to the FDA, for women my age is 75 milligrams a day. Since I took at least 5,000 milligrams both days without adverse reactions – you can see I’m probably not a normal healthy person – and I’m a little low…
Why do you take it every hour? Because your body uses it up within 30 minutes to an hour. Who knew? I sure didn’t. (read more about that here) But I’m wondering why the RDA is 75 milligrams???
So between the prayers, the vitamin C loading and the Pectaclear chelator, I was ready to go!
From teeth pulling, to gum surgery, I’ve had a lot of dental work done. I’m not scared of the dentist and anticipate the pain relatively well. I really only had issues with swallowing and breathing once my mouth was numbed. The dentist had numb the area well.
So well – that my tongue and back part of my mouth was asleep.
I was having trouble swallowing – but then could tell I was also struggling to breathe.
I’m not one to make a fuss, until it’s pretty much too late – so like normal I laid there trying to talk myself out of needing to sit up. I mentioned softly to the nurse, “I can’t breathe…” and then she asked me to repeat myself, and I almost shouted: “I’m having trouble breathing, I need to sit up!”
By this time I broke out in a sweat and was gasping for air.
I was super embarrassed, and I can imagine they were hoping I wouldn’t be doing this throughout the procedure. However, the dentist and assistant were super nice and accommodating, which was very reassuring. He told me if I needed to “call a time out” at any point, that was fine.
The thoughtful assistant also brought me some water to help me cool down, so they could resume. Later the dentist mentioned they had oxygen ready if they needed it. (Thankfully, we didn’t!) So I’m guessing I’m not the first one to have a panic attack.
So 2 hours later we were completed. The worst part of the whole deal is the dam being in with the oxygen on your nose and the vacuum in your face while the dentist is removing the amalgams. It was never painful – just that suffocating feeling. I closed my eyes, focused on those I knew were praying for me – and pretended I was laying out on the beach. (You know, those bright lights at the dentist office could be like the sun?) 🙂
Now my right side of my mouth has beautiful tooth colored fillings, and right away I could tell and feel a difference.
I don’t know how to explain it other than I felt like my head was lighter on that side, and clearer. My sinuses also feel better … it’s crazy!!! I felt fine on the days following the procedure also. No issues at all.
I’m looking forward to having the other side done – and move past this part of healing!
Two notes worth mentioning: It’s best to get your mercury removed in the shortest period of time possible. SO if you can set it up within a 30 day time period, that’s great. Some places will do your whole mouth in one day. The reason being, that you want to get the mercury completely out of your system, vs. it settling back into your body somewhere else. Many places recommend to save up the money you need to get it completed in a short period time, vs. doing it over a course of a year or more as you could afford it. My other tip is, this dentist offered an 8% discount for paying the entire amount up front. Many dentists do this to avoid credit card fees, and payment schedules – our orthodontist has a discount similar to this, and we always try to take advantage of it.
Lastly, I’m excited about the book I’ve ordered regarding illness and mercury fillings. There is a lot of info out there – but this particular book was written by someone I respect greatly on the matter if you’re interested, or know someone who might be. Also, if you have had a root canal, or are ever considering one – do the research about how dangerous these are for your future health. There are tons of stories out there just like this one. It’s quite alarming, but very important to know.
Thanks to all of my friends and family who are praying for me. You really don’t know how much that has meant to me over the past year. It’s the encouragement I’ve needed on the days when I felt like throwing in the towel, that this was all too much. It’s kept me on course, and I KNOW the prayers are being answered because God has brought me so far. SO THANK YOU! 🙂
“Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down,
his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!
Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone?
Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.”
The world we live in is, in some ways, unfortunately predictable.
We assume that the government looks out for our best interest, that people with degrees in their fields are the experts we can rely on.
Through my blog I’m able to see places my blog is mentioned or linked to. Recently I saw it linked to a Weight Watchers site message board… so I decided to click on the link and read a little bit about why someone had referred some one else to my blog.
Well low and behold it was a thread about MS. The person who started the thread was venting about how someone tried to suggest looking to gluten intolerance and other sensitivities for the root source of the MS.
The said person was clearly upset that this helpful, loving person had made this claim – suggesting that something could be done, when she stated that it was “tough enough” having this disease and how insensitive this person was.
To give this fellow MS person some credit – doctors claim that no one knows what specifically causes MS, and they’re simply following what the doctor ordered.
But fill me in, when was it that we became VICTIMS in this society? Why do we think that everything is genetic, or inevitable, or should be blamed on someone else? Is it because we’ve heard it enough times? Is it because taking out organs seems more reasonable that stopping the source of inflammation.
Think about it. Back surgery, sinus surgery, eye surgery, taking out a gall bladder, an appendix, part of your colon… the list is endless. All in the name of chronic inflammation!
While each person is so very different, we DO know toxicity causes malfunction in the body, and the biggest toxicity we encounter daily (if we’re not purposeful)- is FOOD. Gluten (with his huge genetically modified proteins) is such a common inflammatory for the gut and encourages leaky gut, and celiac disease – of COURSE it’s a major contributor as to why the body is malfunctioning in the case of ANY auto immune disease, cancer, behavioral issues and beyond. We know countless other major toxins – from fluoride, to vaccinations, antibiotics, to mercury fillings and cleaners! Once our guts are damaged – enter in countless food and environmental sensitivities, allergies and asthma. We are bombarded – daily. (And this is NORMAL to us, why?)
What concerned me most about the thread… was there was only one other person who stood up for the helpful, loving person who tried to help. They referred them to my blog about it being “all in your head” – because clearly gluten causes major neurological issues for some people (me, and those with MS, Parkinson’s, Alzheimer’s, and so on). Meanwhile, others were encouraging this person to get their employer involved, and how that was crossing the line.
ONE person even stated how “these crazy people” who think disease is tied to food, claim you can treat cancer that way…
It literally broke my heart to read it. (and because it was a closed discussion, I couldn’t post – or believe me, I would have chimed in with encouragement for her to read more of my blog , share other blogs and see a naturopath soon!) Apparently that is the world we live in. The one that wants a pill to fix everything, who believes chemo kills cancer but doesn’t harm their body, causing more cancer and killing the very immune system they need to battle cancer?
WAKE UP WORLD!!! It’s true! You CAN treat all of these ailments with FOOD and natural supplements… in fact, that’s the BEST first option there is to healing your body – but you need direction. Especially if you’re eating a “Standard American Diet” – (SAD) – it’s going to be quite a change, but believe me – your health is worth it!
The quote on the picture above reminds me of the gospel message and Truth. Once you know – you can’t NOT know... you’re accountable to God.
The same applies to health, and healing toxicity by feeding our bodies real, life food. Now that I know… I can’t ignore the information God has blessed me with and make the choices I did before… or I will never be well.
How do we really think we get sick in the first place? Do we honestly think everything is “just” genetic without triggers and environmental factors?
I had someone tell me today they were on a medication they had been on for 10 years, and that it was genetic, and no big deal. The big deal is – the drug causes heart disease. They simply thought walking more and eating more veggies would “fix it”…
Isn’t that a lofty thought?
I wish that because I worked out about an hour 5-6 days a week, and was fit and healthy and eat well – low carbs, low-fat… that some how *I TOO* would have been healthy. We are SO far away from healthy in our country, we don’t even comprehend it. For those people – who aren’t seeking… I often don’t know where to even begin.
Similarly to the gospel message to an unbeliever when their foundation is unbelievably different.
When God presents the opportunity. I don’t stay quiet – I plant a seed. I mention what I know… and PRAY for their desire to seek and learn more. *similar to witnessing, right?! What a blessing and a lovely opportunity to share the gospel and to explain what God created for us in food… for HIS best!
He is so good, and I am forever changed – again, and again. Praise be to God.
For those who choose not to listen and remain ignorant? We pray for you – I was there once too. He didn’t give up on me.
Here’s a recent study on gluten sensitivity and MRI findings. Just for those with MS who are seeking real answers.
“But now, Lord, what do I look for?
My hope is in you.”