Daily Archives: May 16, 2012
LEARN to stop saying I’ll never…apparently!!
When I was 19 I swore I never wanted to have children. I hated men. I think I just hated the world at that point… broken-hearted, angry, and lost for the future I thought I had planned… immaturity… whatever it was, I said it.
God heard me.
NO doubt in my mind He was going to break me of all selfishness and self-willed spouting…
Did I learn?
I continued on saying, “I will never…” and every TIME it’s come back to bite me.
I’ll never drive a mini-van.
I’ll never home school… (those people are WEIRD you know? What about socialization!?!)
I’ll NEVER drive a BIG van, it’s like a school bus… (does our vehicle REALLY define us? How shallow of me!)
I will NEVER bake bread. (isn’t that some home schooling rite of passage? We wear jumpers and bake bread. I won’t say it – but I don’t own a jumper.)
Here I am… making bread… eating crow, and laughing at God.
Oh Lord – what a sense of humor you have. I am SO very wrong, and your ways are far greater than I ever imagine.
In my small hopes of my future, I am SO thankful you laid a greater plan… and love me more than anyone could.
With 8 children, with homeschooling, with providing us a vehicle to be together safely, as our family has grown (and I have grown in maturity), and YES… with the possibility to make bread my children can eat and be healthy. We eat a lot less bread, and I personally don’t eat it at all… but I’m glad I know exactly what is IN this bread (we do love Udi’s bread though).
Thank you Lord – for loving me, and listening to ways I need broken.
“Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire.”