I see a lot of people sharing different things they’re thankful for. It’s a great time to reflect on those things we take for granted, or don’t publically remember and share – as something we truly give thanks to God for each and every day. Some have even committed since the beginning of November to have a “thankful” post on their Facebook page each day. Something they’re grateful for… how it impacts their life.
I rarely post things like that, not because I’m NOT thankful but mainly because I think I’ll fail at a public commitment of posting DAILY and I don’t like that idea of failing. I want God to hold me accountable for things, but I really struggle when I feel like I’m letting people around me down. I personally feel like it goes under the Scripture of causing others to stumble, and I don’t want that to be me. Silly maybe? But, that’s just me.
I don’t like rejection, or confrontation, or stressful situations… so I just tend to avoid them altogether. I’ve even been known to even alter my personality (read: just not talk) to try to make others happy.
In other words. I tried to stop being ME.
Did I really think that was going to make someone else HAPPY?
It may take age, or wisdom… or maybe both… but I’ve realized in the past year – that doesn’t work. I don’t feel better, it doesn’t “fix” relationships or other people. I’m putting a lot of power in “me” if I think I can MAKE someone else happy. That happiness comes from God, and God only. There are also some people who just aren’t going to like you. We have to get over that.
They maybe sad, have their own struggles, jealous, bitter… who knows.
But I do know, I don’t have the power to TAKE happiness, anymore than I do to GIVE it… and I’m thankful for that.
We talked in our weekly Bible study about what we want to be remembered for, what would we like our legacy to be….
and I thought… wow….
Who did God make me to be… and who do I want to be remembered as?
I decided I really don’t want to be “known” for anything specific I guess. Maybe it’s due to living in a smaller town, but I think to NOT be known would be great! I think as much as I enjoy people, and helping and serving – all I really want to do is please God on earth without the praise and credit – and I like it more if no one knows I’m doing it. I’d rather just know in my heart that I’ve done my best for Him. What other people think of me, doesn’t really matter – in the end anyway. The measuring stick, is God’s.
I desire to possess the fruits of the Spirit.
LOVE. Joy. Peace. Patience. Kindness. Goodness. Faithfulness. Gentleness. Self Control.
Yep – that pretty much sums it up! I know I have a long way to go, but God is still at work!
Above all, I want God to know, I did my best – for Him.
On THAT note – it’s time to get my workout on! Today, I’m thankful I can move!
“But we ought always to thank God for you, brothers loved by the Lord, because from the beginning God chose you to be saved
through the sanctifying work of the Spirit and through belief in the truth.” 2 Thess. 2:13